It's never easy, saying goodbye for the last time. My little Buster came to me when I was at a low point in my life. I had just lost my favorite auntie. She was more like a sister and friend rolled into one. Buster seemed to come out if nowhere, appearing on my back porch. I remember the first night he was with us...it rained and thundered. He shivered in fear, so I laid next to him, rubbing his chest to calm him down. It still works today...I lay him across my thigh and caress his chest and neck to comfort him. He has been battling heart failure and it has recently become worse...swollen legs, paws and chest. Labored breathing. Wet cough. When he refused to eat his normal amount of food, I knew it was time. The brightness is gone from his eyes. He has a look of, "Please help me" on his face. We're lucky to see a few wiggles from his now quiet tail that once was so active and full of life. He no longer asks to be let outside. No longer interested in playing with his sister. She knows something is different. She approaches him cautiously and gently licks his face. As much as we would love to have more time, we know it's time to let him rest his body and free his soul. I told him it's okay to leave us...it's time to be free and to find Pappa Mark to play and be happy.
Wednesday, July 7, 2021
Sunday, December 6, 2020
49 things I appreciate (as I turn 49)
1. My sense of humor.
2. The unconditional love I have with my husband.
3. Living super close to my mom.
4. Enjoying the life I have.
5. Being treated like family by my "employers".
6. My canine kids.
7. Having a small family.
8. Accepting who I am.
9. Knowing who my true friends are.
10. The ability to laugh at myself.
11. Living where I grew up.
12. Not having rent/mortgage.
13. Knowing how to cook from scratch.
14. Raising Monarch butterflies.
15. Finding love again.
16. Inheriting my mom's craftiness.
17. Inheriting my dad's tech/mechanical skills.
18. Having had the opportunity to take care of my family.
19. Being next to Mark when he took his last breath.
20. The opportunity to continue my education.
21. Having a step daughter who treats me like mom.
22. Learning to let go.
23. Staying in touch with those I love.
24. Honesty.
25. Knowing the best is yet to come.
26. Loyalty.
27. Having a home craft studio all to myself.
28. Gardening.
29. Being in a healthy, fulfilling relationship.
30. De-stressing my life.
31. Putting myself first for a change.
32. A well stocked fridge.
33. A well stocked craft room.
34. The ability to grow my own food (when the season allows).
35. Having friends all over the States and the world.
36. A second and third "family".
37. Friends who check in.
38. Having friends to check in on.
39. A creative mind.
30. People who can make me laugh.
31. Hockey...a sport that actually interests me.
31. A nice, sexy bearded man.
32. Anyone who is true to their words.
33. Children that are polite and appreciative.
34. Adults who are polite and appreciative.
35. Canned apricots. Seriously, can't get enough of them.
36. Free speech.
37. Nature.
38. Living my best life.
39. Having a man who can fix things...my car, computer, house, etc.
40. People who enjoy and appreciate my cooking.
41. People who don't bullshit.
42. Finding new ways to explore life.
43. Losing weight, slowly and healthy.
44. Having passion.
45. Being open minded.
46. Knees that don't cause me constant pain.
47. Being good to others.
48. Letting others be good to me.
49. Looking forward the to my future.